19 year old on a journey to weightloss and gender transition. Pursuing a degree in Biological Science, then a pHD in Reproductive Biology. If you know me in real life, please keep this blog private.
I tend to be socially awkward, quiet and shy. I do love giving advice to people and my only guilty habit is smoking a little bud every now and then. My blog is going to reflect my interests, search for my identity and other random things. Some things may be NSFW and 18+ and I'll try to tag it as such. Feel free to look at my "Contact Me" page for more ways to talk to me.
- me after eating one healthy meal: i wonder how much weight I've lost
My issue with anger
I need to be doing my Calc homework and reading this Psych chapter, but I’ve been discovering just how potentially explosive my anger could be. I’m a very quiet, socially anxious person. I’m very emotional (which is something I pray changes when I get on T). One of those emotions is anxiety, the other anger. Most of my anger stems from my own confusion and mess ups, but I tend to easily get angry at people.
Example: After I accidentally liked something on the girl I liked (I told her the day of prom last year) Tumblr (which was/is public on social media websites), she labeled me as “creepy” though I did nothing wrong. I’m guessing she thinks I was only on her blog to look at a half-naked (if you can even call it that) pic she had on there for a progress photo (she runs a fitness blog). She unfollowed me on Instagram, unfriended me on Facebook, and unfollowed me on Twitter. This made me beyond angry. I had done nothing wrong. She had the link to her Tumblr readily available almost everywhere. Just because I had a crush on her, she thought my intentions worse than others. I’ve harbored this anger to the point where whenever I go onto her Tumblr and Twitter (and see her having a wonderful old time losing weight and enjoying senior year), I want to smash something, anything. I don’t know how to get rid of it, but it’s only destroying me.
The point of this post was to say that I can only imagine how bad my anger will be on T. I really hope I don’t become physical, because I know for a fact that I’m a bit too strong for my own good when angry and I could really do damage. It sounds like something petty to be angry over, but I thought we were becoming cool, then she pulls this bullshit.
This is why white cishet males should shut up….
Angel Haze’s first line:
”At age 13 my mother knew I wasn’t straight, she didn’t understand but she had so much to say, she sat me on the couch looked me straight in my face and said you’ll burn in hell or probably die of AIDS.”
And the original:
”When I was in the third grade I thought that I was gay,
'Cause I could draw, my uncle was, and I kept my room straight.”
yaaaaaas Angel Haze is so much better than crusted ass macklewho?
People complain when cisgender people/heterosexual people don’t try and understand the LGBT community, then when they do and use their fame to get this message of discrimination out, and people still complain.